No. 360
Not going back was not an option in the first place.
Adrian, I had no intention of leaving you alone and being happy alone.
Although the pain is the foundation, I did not give up everything I have worked so hard for.
Adrian, who was one step closer to collapsing like a piece of parched soil, looked at me silently.
I cried and laughed.
“You told me not to cry, but you made me cry the most.”
“…...”
“Your love is overwhelming.”
Adrian grabbed my cheek with his half-dispersed hand. His eyes that stared at me in a frenzy trembled slightly.
“Are you okay with this broken country?”
His voice who asking me was sad.
I tried not to cry, forcing the corners of my trembling lips to smile.
"Okay."
“I won't last long. Maybe this will be the last time.”
“It doesn’t matter what will be happen.”
“……”
"I'm fine with anything as long as you're with me"
I lifted him up with a hideous fissure in his rock-hard skin.
Adrian followed me without a word.
Now instead of his broken, weeping eyes, his palms were damp. His hands, wet with tension and sorrow, were pathetic and lovely.
"Let's go."
“…… The door won't open. LeBlaine, I can't even open the door to <God's Space> anymore.”
“Then you just have to find another way. There's definitely an exit somewhere. I've always found a way, even at a dead end."
I dragged him and walked through the God's Space.
Adrian followed me cautiously.
God's Space was different from what we had seen in the future. Far from being enveloped in the light, LeBlaine had to walk in the darkness, leaning on the faint light emanating from Adrian.
We talked a lot while walking in the dark.
Adrian asked, and I answered.
“Because you are here.”
“Does your family allow you to go to the Temple on the Beginning Day?”
“My family always believes in me, as you."
Or I asked and Adrian answered.
"How have you been?"
“Looking at you.”
“How long have you been wasting time alone?”
“As much as I love you.”
“You’re good at talking embarrassing things.”
“Because I knew that the time we spent together was so precious that we couldn’t waste it with vain pride or shyness.”
We talked a lot.
How much I missed Adrian, and how heartbreaking it was even after I lose my memory.
How much Adrian wanted to see me, and how painful the time he had to pass even though he knew that I had lost my memory.
The time we had to chat was so precious.
According to Adrian's words, he couldn't waste it with ignorant pride or shyness, so he had no choice but to take out the sincerity he had hidden in his heart and wrap it in the prettiest words.
Because I knew.
In fact, I actually knew that he wouldn't last long.
Maybe we won't be able to cross the aisle together, or his body may be completely shattered before crossing the aisle.
As we walked together, he fell apart as if parts were missing.
Adrian stroked my hand several times to check me as if he had lost his sense of touch, and repeated his hand as if he had lost his strength, as if he had lost his sense of touch, and his breathing became rough like a rustling sound...…
I forcefully hold Adrian's hand on his behalf, and shorten the stride for him, who can't walk.
Suddenly, a door appeared in front of me.
Finally, losing his sight, Adrian asked me over and over again.
“Are you going?”
"Yes?"
“Is there a door?”
“There's in front of me.”
“Can you go back?”
That door doesn't shine.
You won't be able to go back.
But I answered.
"Yeah."
If we can't go back, let's walk together for the rest of our lives.
Even if I spend my whole life in darkness, I can make up a landscape as much as I want.
I'm a good liar, so...…
‘A little longer.’
I hope you...… Please.
“Adrian, it’s me. Actually, when I saw you in the Temple when I was four, my heart tremble.”
"Okay."
“I deceived myself that it was because I knew you were the man who would become the Crown Prince, but looking back, I think it was because you were so handsome.”
“It's……"
The voice is getting less and less audible.
I looked ahead stubbornly and walked with Adrian.
His hand was getting smaller and smaller. Even without looking, I could feel his fragments scattered along the way I had passed.
“I know you have liked me for a very long time.”
“……”
“The reason why I liked you more than the other boys may be because I also liked you little by little.”
“……”
You have permeated little by little. In the end, I have no choice but to hug you.
I stood in front of the door I had reached and confessed with Adrian standing behind my back, who was no longer able to answer.
“So Adrian, so I……”
"I like you."
He hugged me from behind.
You, who always took a step ahead on behalf of my cowardly me, were braver than me even at the last moment.
Soon after, there was the sound of sand pouring down along with the sound.
The hand that embraced me disappears,
Alone, I cried with my face in my hands.
I sat down and cried like a child. I couldn't afford to look back.
You, who lived your whole life for me, broke for me, nevertheless loved me, and left a word for me even at the end, I could not bear to look back.
Then, the space began to warp.
I hurriedly raised my head.
‘Are you going to collapse?’
There is no God in this world.
In the future, Serga maintains the world, but in this parallel world, Adrian, the pillar, has disappeared.
With time, the ‘World that shouldn’t have been’ created by Adrian will collapse.
Kwajik-!!
A loud cracking sound pierced my ears sharply.
At that moment, a new door shone white next to the only dark door opened.
From there, Serga walked out.
I looked at Serga blankly.
The light emanating from his body rose like a star in the air.
'Seventy one star.'
And with a flash of light behind LeBlaine's back, light rose from the sand that Adrian had flown down.
‘Seventy two…… No way.'
My body started to glow brightly.
Then Serga opened his mouth.
“The last pionerr¹."
It was the first time he called me a pionerr.
Serga looked at me.
“If I grant your wish, what will you give me?”
[If I grant you a wish, what will you do for me?]
That's what I always said to the demons.
I was overwhelmed.
Words like 'maybe' and 'perhaps' came to my mind.
The 72 stars became pillars of light, and I slowly got up.
“All my powers, all my opportunities, all my strength.”
Serga looked at me quietly.
“Even if you have to pay a terrible price for that?”
“……”
“Even if it’s more heartbreaking, more desperate, and more painful than the path you’ve taken so far.”
“……”
“But will your wish come true in the end?”
"It does not matter. I am a strong kid who never gives up on my life.”
When I smiled with a face messed up with tears, Serga's indifferent lips drew a friendly arc.
“You are my child who is always looking for answers.”
“……”
“As you saved me and my children, this time we will save you.”
72 pillars permeated the space of God.
The non-luminous door and the glowing door overlapped and became one door.
[Go, LeBlaine.]
I started running over the door.
The little hands grew little by little, and the short legs grew little by little.
While I was running, I changed from a child to a full-fledged adult.
There was an exit in front of me.
With my eyes closed, I ran towards the light.
And when I open my eyes...…
I was in the middle of the forest.
* * *
The familiar forest.
‘It’s a Dubbleed Territory.’
It was clear that the mountain where my Mom and Reina died. I quickly approached the cliff and looked down the mountain.
‘It’s the Dubbleed Territory, but what’s that flag?’
It was the first flag I had ever seen.
Anxiety began to creep in.
‘Have I come to another parallel world?’
Oops! I can't go back like this!
I quickly went down the mountain to check. Having lived in the Dubbleed Territory for a long time, it didn't take long to get used to the geography and descend.
There was a Temple at the bottom of the mountain, and it was crowded with people.
‘What is a Temple?’
I grabbed an old man passing by and asked.
“Isn’t this the Dubbleed Territory?”
“What is Dubbleed…… Yep, this person! It has been a while since this territory become independent!”
“Being independent?”
"Okay! It has been three years since the disappearing Princess destroyed the Evil God and this country became independent!”
"3 years……”
3 years have passed?
So, I return to the future that exised not to another parallel world?
The old man clicked his tongue.
“Where did you live, in the corner of the mountain? Your face is also messed up...… If you need help, why don't you go there? Just in time, people came from the Royal place because it was the Day of the Sky Festival. This country does not reject foreigners.”
I looked in the direction the old man was pointing.
There were a lot of women dressed in fancy clothes that looked like a maid's robe.
Seeing the person in front of me, I narrowed my eyebrow.
“…… Reina?”
What.
Dubbleed become independent, why is Reina there?
“Dubbleed became independent and Reina came to a parallel world……? Did there even exist such a dreamlike parallel world?”
“There are no more parallel worlds in this world.”
“……!”
I was stunned by the voice that I heard behind my back and stiffened.
Leblaine slowly turned her head.
The woman smiled brightly.
“It’s been really a long time to wait.”
“……”
“My baby.”
"Mom..."
Tears fell from my mother's eyes.
My mom hugged me tightly.
Behind my mom's back, I heard the sound of someone.
There's person who walked past the tree and walked towards us...…
“Hello, Ishaq*.”
“…… This is LeBlaine.”
[What is your wish?]
‘It’s done, Serga-sama.’
My first and last wish as a pionerr.
A world where we don't lose our loved ones.
*PS:
1. What I should I use, "Visionary" or "Pionerr" for this word "μ κ°μμ¬" ?
2. So let's see, who will call LeBlaine as "Ishaq" ?
Yes, it's him ADRIANNN ππ.
Remember, when LeBlaine, 4 y.o, met Adrian for the first time at the Temple?. She told him that her name's "Ishaq" so maybe Adrian just call her like that time.
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